whyyyyyyy

would you wear a skirt unless you don't have to? This has always baffled me! I mean, I'm all for a cute, girly skirt but I just can't seem to bring myself to wear a skirt unless I have to. I think it has something to do with having to sit lady-like constantly. I mean, not that I don't usually sit in a lady like fashion, but knowing that I have to makes it just so difficult.

haha.

cat got your tongue

I've decided that I have the cutest kitty ever. Last night Kiki was asleep on my lap and she just looked so cute that I called Hunter into my room to hand me my camera so I could take pictures of her.

I think my skills are slowly getting better :)

Check out that depth of field! And that clarity! It's funny how through trial and error you slowly learn things about your camera that makes things so much easier! Go ahead, praise me if you feel the need ;) JUST KIDDING!

what a slap in the face

We're all faced with hard things in life. We're all faced with trials that we could have never comprehended we would endure, but our outlook on our trials is what makes us strong. Our faith in our Heavenly Father to carry us when we can't walk ourselves is what makes us stronger. 

I just read a blog. She's not a friend of mine, but she is the sister of a girl I knew many years ago at EFY. She has recently been diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Within the past year she has also been diagnosed with Endometriosis which has caused her to have surgery on her ovaries. This also means that she will most likely have to endure another surgery to have a hysterectomy within the next few years. Did I mention that she now has to go on chemotherapy for her RA? Oh wait, I forgot to tell you.. she's 23. Yes, 23. Two years older then myself.

I thought I've had trials that are difficult, but compared to hers mine are just bumps in the road. I cannot even imagine the things she's faced in such a short life. But, her outlook and faith in our Heavenly Father is incredible. 

I aspire to have the faith and love that she has. I know that she has moments of breaking down, for she is only human. I know that this will not lessen the difficulties that I will/have face(d) with my trials, but when I feel like I just want to give up, I can think back to her. I can recall her strength and positivity. She is truly a daughter of our Heavenly Father. A very special daughter. 

So, I ask that you will pray for her. I won't leave her name for her privacy, but He'll know who you are referring to.  You'll be blessed for your act of service, I promise :)

conclusions

I've come to the conclusion that some people are just plain annoying. You cannot be happy all the time. Something has to make you mad. Stop acting perfect. It is SLIGHTLY obnoxious.

That is all,
Maria

p.s. I seem to have a problem with my spelling on my blog. For the record, I am actually an excellent speller. I just have a problem with proof reading :)

campin' foo

This weekend we're going camping... Yes, you read that correctly. My family is going CAMPING. Now I will survive, I do not know.

We're going in Pennsylvania. The dog is going (stupid dog). It's supposed to rain a lot. MEH. And I may not get to chat on Monday :( This is will be long week.

Alas, I did get my hair done today. I am SUPA blonde again. You may observe my adorable self below.

tank top

meh. got my tank top for work today.

it's the lifeguard ones where they are really loose fitting and breezy...

yeah, well if you're not wearing a bathing suit under the shirt and just a bra, it looks a LITTLE trashy.

Tyler, the kid I work with replied with, "OCD! OCD!" haha. now he thinks everything that I worry about is because of my ocd.

But, let me just tell you. I work with some pretty awesome people. Jordan and Tyler. WE ARE THE DREAM TEAM! FOOOOOO SHOOOOOO!

roots

are yucky. major root rot going on right now. gettin' my hurr did in a week. FINALLY.

that's about 2 inches right now. ugh.

words to live by

wishin and hopin

Today is a day I wish I didn't have OCD. I wonder what my life would be like without it. Would I worry so much about the things I can't control? Would I want to cry all the time for fear of the unknown?

I know that we all experience fear and anxiety, but unless you have OCD, I don't expect you to understand. Just imagine fear that controls you daily. Imagine wanting to sleep all day just so you can escape the worry you know awaits you when you wake. It's hard, really hard.

I know that I accepted this challenge in Heaven. Why I would ever accept the challenge to deal with OCD every day of my life is beyond me, but I said I was willing to bear the burden.

I have to fight. I have to fight everyday my thoughts and feelings. It's hard, but I know I can overcome this. My Heavenly Father is watching out for me. I know he carries me when I can't walk myself.

I'm trying so, so hard. I just hope I can do this. I hope that my fears aren't my reality.