i'm really bad a blogging

i've been thinking about this blog a lot recently. as in, i've been thinking a lot about how i haven't posted anything in forever. i've been spending my life doing important things, you know....

pinterest
facebook
eating
watching tv

you know, the essentials.

but, there is so much to catch up on. the most recent news in my life? well, i found out about two weeks ago that i will be graduating in april. i've been planning on july, so april was a bit of a shock. let's just say, i had a small (large) mental breakdown. there was crying and hyperventilating and lots of anger.

you see, most would be excited by this news. i, on the other hand, was not. i realized that once i graduate, i have to start being a big girl. i'll have to get a real job and pay real bills. i'll have to live on my own and meet new friends. (so pretty much half of those things i've been doing the past two years, but still) i'm not gonna lie. i'm scared. like curl up in a ball, cry and squeeze my teddy bear while laying in my bed scared. and i think there is one big factor that scares me the most.

i'm not married.

okay, so i know. i'm only 22. i get it. but being mormon, that is a big deal. i had to come to major terms with this.

but i'm excited now and i'm ready. i'm ready to move on with my life and i'm excited to find out what the future holds. bring it on, world.

bring.
it.
on.