Saturday, October 30, 2010
remember that one time...
I LOVE reminiscing! It's so fun to think back on the past, and all the good times that we've experienced. Even the bad can be good to ponder on. You can see how much you've grown and progressed. Three hours of reminiscing tonight was so super fun. I love friends that bring back great memories. Hopefully we can keep them coming!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Photography or not, here I come.
I've decided to change my major... again. This has been a long time in the making, but I feel that it is the right choice. I am changing from an elementary education major to a photography major. What a jump.
I'm taking an education class. History of Education, to be exact. I went into this semester thinking that I was truly going to enjoy this class, and all the new insight it would bring. But, as the semester has progressed, the more I've realized that I'm not meant to be a teacher.
For example, the other day my teacher was telling us a story of the Cleveland inner-city school system. The situation goes as follows: The students of the inner-city schools were given vouchers to attend the public schools in the suburban areas.
The parents of these suburban students were extremely upset by this. For one, these parents were playing high taxes so their children could receive an excellent education. With these students moving in, the probability of their children receiving one on one time with their teachers would be greatly diminished. Secondly, the parents were paying high taxes that the new students parents would not be having pay. And finally, the parents feared that the inner city school children would bring their inner city problems into the suburbs.
Now, as I sat in class I watched my other classmates shake their heads in disgust. My teacher then expressed to us how she felt about the situation explaining that, as teachers, we should be doing all that we can to ensure that our students are leaving our classrooms with confidence knowing that I have instilled in them the best education that they can receive.
And then it dawned on me... I agreed with the parents. To put it bluntly, I wouldn't want my children being thrown into inner city problems.
When I'm bored, I don't look up teaching information online. I dread teaching in my classes when I have to present.
I HATE TEACHING!
Then I realized how often I am on photography blogs, and wedding websites. I am obsessed with weddings, and pictures of wedding. I always have a camera in my hands when I leave my apartment. I'm taking a exploring photography class on campus. For the last three semesters, I've had photography callings.
I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY!
I want to be a wedding photographer! My two passions rolled into one! How could it get more perfect! I know that I am no where near a professional photographer, but it's what I love. It's a talent I want to continue to develop. And, by becoming a photographer I can stay at home and raise my children. I can have a studio in my house. I can do both the things that mean the most to me. And I am so confident in my decision.
Just a few of my best pictures :)
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I'm taking an education class. History of Education, to be exact. I went into this semester thinking that I was truly going to enjoy this class, and all the new insight it would bring. But, as the semester has progressed, the more I've realized that I'm not meant to be a teacher.
For example, the other day my teacher was telling us a story of the Cleveland inner-city school system. The situation goes as follows: The students of the inner-city schools were given vouchers to attend the public schools in the suburban areas.
The parents of these suburban students were extremely upset by this. For one, these parents were playing high taxes so their children could receive an excellent education. With these students moving in, the probability of their children receiving one on one time with their teachers would be greatly diminished. Secondly, the parents were paying high taxes that the new students parents would not be having pay. And finally, the parents feared that the inner city school children would bring their inner city problems into the suburbs.
Now, as I sat in class I watched my other classmates shake their heads in disgust. My teacher then expressed to us how she felt about the situation explaining that, as teachers, we should be doing all that we can to ensure that our students are leaving our classrooms with confidence knowing that I have instilled in them the best education that they can receive.
And then it dawned on me... I agreed with the parents. To put it bluntly, I wouldn't want my children being thrown into inner city problems.
When I'm bored, I don't look up teaching information online. I dread teaching in my classes when I have to present.
I HATE TEACHING!
Then I realized how often I am on photography blogs, and wedding websites. I am obsessed with weddings, and pictures of wedding. I always have a camera in my hands when I leave my apartment. I'm taking a exploring photography class on campus. For the last three semesters, I've had photography callings.
I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY!
I want to be a wedding photographer! My two passions rolled into one! How could it get more perfect! I know that I am no where near a professional photographer, but it's what I love. It's a talent I want to continue to develop. And, by becoming a photographer I can stay at home and raise my children. I can have a studio in my house. I can do both the things that mean the most to me. And I am so confident in my decision.
Just a few of my best pictures :)
'
Sunday, October 3, 2010
oh CONFERENCE!
So, who doesn't love a GREAT conference weekend?! I know I sure do, but aren't ALL conference's INCREDIBLY FANTASTIC?!
General Conference is always full of inspiring and uplifting messages, and they're always at the time when we need to hear them the most. I've always been told to go into conference with a question that I seek the answer for. Never had I tried this whole heartedly. I often would just think of something moments before conference I was seeking an answer for, but I had never prayed to receive one. Well, all that changed this conference.
On Friday night I prayed that I would receive guidance of what would help me most at this time handling my OCD. Saturday morning as I sat down to watch conference, I was filled with the Spirit. How can the words of the Lord sent down through his apostles and prophets not fill you with the Spirit? I listened intently to the words that were spoken. And then it happened, the one talk that will stand out to me for mostly likely the rest of my life.
It was given by President Uchtdorf. (Such a cutie!) He often speaks of flying, which is most familiar to him. He was speaking of turbulence when flying. Often to the student pilot, the first reaction to turbulence is to speed up to escape it as quickly as possible. However, to the experienced pilot, they quickly know that slowing down will easy the turbulence experienced.
He then transitioned to an analogy of speed bumps. When we slow down as we pass over them, the bump we feel is often very insignificant. THEN my FAVORITE quote of conference. (Not a direct quote because I forgot some of the words..)
Slow down and study the essentials.
My "AH-HA!" moment then occurred. I need to slow down and focus on the here and now. I am so focused on planning my future, and how I'm going to react when Ryan gets home, are we going to work out, is this meant to be?
I have forgotten that I CANNOT plan my future. I need to focus on what is directly in front of me. My school work is of most importance right now. Also, I need to focus on becoming more spiritually in-tune.
Starting yesterday, I am no longer trying to plan my future. As long as I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, and focusing on the Lord, it will all fall into place. Sure, this does not mean that I do not have a preference as to what I would like to happen. I will always have that preference. But knowing that the Lord knows me better then I know myself is more important then what I want for myself.
Of course I am still going to write Ryan, and be his friend! He is my best friend, and I love him more then anything. But, I am going to take it slowly and hope for the best.
I know my Heavenly Father loves me. I know that he listens to my every prayer, and wants so badly to take away my pain and suffering. I know that he is looking out for me, and that if I am doing as I should, he will bless me. He may even bless me with what I want most. I love this gospel, and the peace it brings. I know the church is true, and that the Book of Mormon is another testament of Jesus Christ.
I just need to remember these things.
General Conference is always full of inspiring and uplifting messages, and they're always at the time when we need to hear them the most. I've always been told to go into conference with a question that I seek the answer for. Never had I tried this whole heartedly. I often would just think of something moments before conference I was seeking an answer for, but I had never prayed to receive one. Well, all that changed this conference.
On Friday night I prayed that I would receive guidance of what would help me most at this time handling my OCD. Saturday morning as I sat down to watch conference, I was filled with the Spirit. How can the words of the Lord sent down through his apostles and prophets not fill you with the Spirit? I listened intently to the words that were spoken. And then it happened, the one talk that will stand out to me for mostly likely the rest of my life.
It was given by President Uchtdorf. (Such a cutie!) He often speaks of flying, which is most familiar to him. He was speaking of turbulence when flying. Often to the student pilot, the first reaction to turbulence is to speed up to escape it as quickly as possible. However, to the experienced pilot, they quickly know that slowing down will easy the turbulence experienced.
He then transitioned to an analogy of speed bumps. When we slow down as we pass over them, the bump we feel is often very insignificant. THEN my FAVORITE quote of conference. (Not a direct quote because I forgot some of the words..)
Slow down and study the essentials.
My "AH-HA!" moment then occurred. I need to slow down and focus on the here and now. I am so focused on planning my future, and how I'm going to react when Ryan gets home, are we going to work out, is this meant to be?
I have forgotten that I CANNOT plan my future. I need to focus on what is directly in front of me. My school work is of most importance right now. Also, I need to focus on becoming more spiritually in-tune.
Starting yesterday, I am no longer trying to plan my future. As long as I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, and focusing on the Lord, it will all fall into place. Sure, this does not mean that I do not have a preference as to what I would like to happen. I will always have that preference. But knowing that the Lord knows me better then I know myself is more important then what I want for myself.
Of course I am still going to write Ryan, and be his friend! He is my best friend, and I love him more then anything. But, I am going to take it slowly and hope for the best.
I know my Heavenly Father loves me. I know that he listens to my every prayer, and wants so badly to take away my pain and suffering. I know that he is looking out for me, and that if I am doing as I should, he will bless me. He may even bless me with what I want most. I love this gospel, and the peace it brings. I know the church is true, and that the Book of Mormon is another testament of Jesus Christ.
I just need to remember these things.
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